Screaming inside my head...

Ever have one of those moments... when something happens or someone happens, and you are "not allowed" to react... so you are SCREAMING inside your head?  You don't hear a word they're saying... all you can think (I mean scream inside your head) is "DON'T SHOW EMOTION... STAY CALM... IT WILL BE OVER SOON!"  

I pride myself on being a fairly calm, (ok, fine excitable at times...) but able to handle stress... mostly a jovial, but together person.  However, there is a category of items that GET me.  Where I am unable to stay inside my own God Damn skin!?!?  It's a shame too, because in those moments, you typically need your MOST amount "cool" you have stored up. 

I once heard Richard Dreyfus say in the movie "The Goodbye Girl"... "Just when I need my ego the most, it locks itself in the john."  That's perfect. 

So.  This is my anthem to all those like me that struggle with this lack of cool in times of need.  Let's pool our collective circumstances... take one last look at them... and BURN 'EM!  No more... commit to, every time we encounter one of those dreaded moments... we summon our collective coolness and courage... and boldly fight on!

I have decided, and know to be true, that our reaction, is really a choice.  We have to move forward more proactively, design the moments... You all know as well as I do that you can see them coming at you... your boss with a funny look on his face, a devastatingly handsome man... in that VERY moment... DECIDE... you WILL have your MOST amount of coolness available to you... and be as calm as you are standing on a street corner daydreaming and sipping a latte.

Deal? deal.  

 Whew.