Present, Past & Future

(I wrote this weeks ago and never published it...)
I got to thinking today about filling the gaps...What I mean is, I think when we grow up, no matter how miserable or happy that existence is, we are left with gaps.  That which creates our differences... it's a good thing, because through our diversity we hopefully learn to use our talents and gaps through life. Ok Example.. I grew up pretty independent... now if I was feeling sorry for myself, I would say neglected, or lonely... but I'm not there any more.  Now I like to take things more positively, and this way, I get to say independent.  This has afforded me the opportunity to learn a lot on my own.  I have become quite ingenious with problem solving because I didn't have anyone to teach me things, I HAD to learn on my own.  Now fast forward to being an adult, unlike a lot of friends I have that had amazing families... I don't have those kinds of ties, I'm not close to them.  So, I get to go off and live all over the planet, freely, because I don't have those ties.  

Don't get me wrong, it's taken a long time to get to this place, and of course I still have moments of longing for the kind of love and support I witness with my friends families.  But I realized I can not change the past or reality.  I need to appreciate the lessons and talents it has translated for me.  I wouldn't be the person I am today if not for my independent childhood.  Making up games for myself, learning to be happy playing alone... I have an easy time solving problems, and getting through sticky situations, because I had to figure out things on my own as a kid.  Which is great because not only can I help myself, I tend to help friends figure things out as well.  It's a nice skill.  I have enjoyed it, and continue to hone it.

Anyway... just a thought I had... as I always hear friends winging on about their pasts,  I say... "Live more proactively, more present..."  Move forward... wake up every day as if on purpose... ask for what you want... enjoy moments... keep your head up... keep looking forward....  What you desire will come to you... if you only simply believe it.
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